Early

Psalm 90:14

“Oh, satisfy us early with Your mercy,
That we may rejoice and be glad all our days.”

Lord, awaken this sleeping heart.

Strip away the crushing stress, the oppressive obligation.

Strip away the dull, lifeless charade.

Strip away the pleasantries, hiding pain and purposelessness.

Let this heart truly live, truly pulsate with Your life.

The only life.

Come early, Lord.

Not tomorrow, not the day after, the week after, or next year.

Early.

Come early to my heart, early to my life, Jesus.

That I may rejoice and be glad all my days in You, the Delight of My Soul.

Come early, even as the dawn is yet breaking!

Hiding Place

To Have Him

Wonder

There is something to be said for a grinding halt.

In days where every hour is filled and each moment categorized, we don’t have time to just think. To consider. To wonder.

All this rushing makes for very productive citizens, but does it make for awakened hearts, acquainted souls?

I’m not speaking of acquaintance between friends but the very acquaintance of life, of God.

This past weekend, I spent a solitary hour upon my bed and did nothing but sit in the quiet. The usual rush of thoughts cleared away and these unencumbered questions filled my soul.

What is truth?
Who is Elyce?
What is important enough for her to commit her life and sow her most precious hours?
Who is her Father?
What is He really like?
What does He think about Elyce?
Why did He make Elyce?

Rather than suppress the questions in a hurry, with safe Christian answers- I stopped. And I allowed the depth of these questions to probe my soul.

Christians can be afraid of mystery. Of wonder. Of not knowing. They always have an answer for everything. Theology becomes as familiar as brushing my teeth or wearing my seat belt. But this theology does not satisfy.

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A long time ago, there was a great dark empty space. Formless. Void. And my Dad created life. Think of it. Picture in your mind. See yourself seated on His shoulder as He formed the earth, sky, and waters- from nothing. Can you imagine what it must have been like?

It must have been unfathomably magnificent. Wonder-full.

I am convinced that the first key to an awakened heart is an awed heart. How can an enthralled heart but burn?

God is still in this wonder business. Yes- He might seem so far away, emaciated religion might seem so close. But He is not far away.

“….so that they should seek the Lord, in the hope that they might grope for Him (feel after Him) and find Him, though He is not far from each one of us.”
Acts 17:27

The Greek words used to describe the feeling after God (pselaphao) and the finding of God (heurisko) uncover His heart for us. With pselaphao we are told that God wants us to verify by contact, handle, touch. And heurisko shares that God’s ultimate goal is for us to find, get, and obtain Him. God wants us have Him!

God knows how weak we are.
He knows the confusion, the distance, the apathy, the exhaustion, the starvation.

But He has come to rescue us.
And our rescue?

To have Him.

To have God Himself-
the Answer to our every question and the Richest of Fare for our every craving.

Amen.